I spent a lot of time, many years to say the least, deciding if I could endure the challenges in my marriage. If God put us together, who was I to give up? How could I bear the burden of my kids constant questioning why their parents couldn't ‘just make it work’? Wasn't marriage supposed to be hard?
It was when my sanity was at stake that I confronted God head on and begged him for clarity to help me understand my role in our marriage, in our family. A few months later, God answered my prayers. He reminded me that in Judaism there is a way out of marriage when one feels that his soul is dying a slow tormented death within the relationship. Laws of Gittin are meant to tell spouses like me that God loves us and knows how hard we tried to make it all work, to be a good wife and to keep our family together. But when it just can't, He offers us another option to continue nourishing our souls and doing His Will.